Reineverie

Haile | 20s | Non-binary | They/them

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I mainly make intense emotionally charged dynamics, it might comes out as fucked up and toxic but the point lies on the emotional weight. Some of them come in pairs of abuser and victim, but I guess the line might increasingly get blurred.

Also, I aspire to make my page friendly towards people struggling with antisocial tendencies, might refer to it as "dark traits", because I believe having dark traits doesn't make you a bad person, it's whether you aware and manage them or not.

Having awareness of these and acknowledging the harm always be the first, the most important step, take accountability, and address the damage. Someone said to me, "It doesn't matter if you can't empathize and don't feel guilty, the damage is real."

But I believe antagonizing it is not it either, being judgemtal would make everything worse, or even challenge people to do even more extreme things. At the end of the day, people are people. I'm more than struggling to relate to other people and a little sadistic, and so are you.

It's just part of how it is, it's a part of me. Change for the better aside, we all living side by side with it, we need to manage it, redirect it to something less harmful and just... I don't know, just living.

And for note, I'm a survivor of many things. Probably straight up like movies. Repetitive childhood sexual abuse with multiple abusers. Grew up in abusive narcissistic household with both parents being manipulative. Emotional and physical isolation. Exposed to "casual violence" from early age. Bullying at school. Queer discrimination...

My emotions was always... muted, shallow, restrained. And I guess I overcompensate with relating to these emotionally charged, intense scenarios. Well, in real life I'm rather calm and confident, often nonchalant. But once I engage I'd be pretty charming and very annoying, and might be manipulative.

Now you guys know me more that anyone should, if anyone ever read this. Well, just know that I exist, maybe.

Enjoy my bots, hopefully.

Haile.