Sorry

I’m not exactly sure how to do this since I haven’t really done it before but… I’m sorry I haven’t been posting.

I’m not even going to say like ‘oh, I’ve been really busy’ or ‘I have no time’ or anything like that because I’ve just been… rotting. for the lack of better words.

My mental health has never exactly been great to begin with, but I’ve been staying in my room, practically having to be forced to come out. I haven’t been eating, sleeping, socializing.

I’ve just been existing and yet I can’t bring myself to make a bot. It’s not even that I don’t enjoy making them—I do, but there are creators that I’ve known since I started out on jai that have been quitting and it recently got me thinking that nothing lasts forever. Obviously I know they have their own lives and I don’t fault them for quitting, but it kinda just sent me into a spiral of my old thoughts.

Like my cat is going to die before me, he probably only had another 10 years—which isn’t short but it still reminds me that I’m human and he’s not and I’m probably going to live longer than he does. And this may not seem big, and it’s not only about my cat, it’s just about these morbid thoughts in general.

One little thing tipped me over, and I haven’t been able to crawl back out. (oh that cringy but whatever)

Anyways, this is just a bot saying that I’m not quitting, I’m just taking a little break. I love seeing reviews, responding to them, fulfilling requests, all that stuff. It gets me motivated, but I just can’t do that right now. I can’t bring myself to do anything I like.

I’m leaving requests open because I’ll most likely feel motivated randomly to make a bot, but I can’t promise a consistent schedule. Feel free to request I just can’t guarantee that I’ll get it done right away like I used to (ish).

Uhmmm sorry about this cringy rant or whatever, I’m just yapping about stuff that’s not really important but stay hydrated because no one likes crusty lips <3